motivation!

I was told I was one of the best suturers that they'd seen, as far as 3rd year students go. I got to close some of the cases (stitch up the holes from the laproscopic surgeries) on Friday, and I was sooo nervous. Every time I am sooo nervous. I have these thoughts about how they're just going to take it away from me if I don't do it right fast enough etc, but they are soo patient and they let me screw up, and its okay.

This service is different than my last one, because the continuity isn't quite the same. I might see the same patient for a couple of days but I don't get to spend a week with that patient. I sorta miss that aspect of it. But, I still get some pretty amazing stories from the patients, and you'd be amazed at how attached to someone you can get in just a few minutes. I think thats why I know surgery will be a good field for me. I will still see my patients when they need me, and since I like to help people out and feel like I'm contributing to someone in a positive way, I think this will be a very rewarding field for me. Not to sound like Its all about me, but this is my blog lol :)

I am so excited to get back to clinic tomorrow. I can't believe how much I am learning. I found out today that every one of these residents has gotten in the 90th percentile on their boards. Which makes me wonder how they seem so normal yet study so much. I wish I had that much motivation. I know studying is important, its how I got here, but when do you have fun if you're always stuck in a book? I guess I have a LOT to learn from these guys, not only in the OR but about balancing life too.

In other news, this weekend I went sledding... yes its true, Toledo has hills... 6 of them... and Margaret and I went down all 6 of them... It was great... i dont' think I've done that for a long time... it was me and her and a bunch of kids under the age of 15 lololol i was so scared but those kids were fearless!! headfirst, towards a bunch of trees... god... hahaha but hey i mean we had a good time, no one got hurt, and I wasn't even THAT sore this morning hahaha

I'm starting to feel like Toledo can offer me more than just a medical education here... Its a good feeling...

I still miss Athens, but I know I will be fine :)


Have a good one!