hello world!!

So, today I learned a valuable lesson. Trust in yourself... or Trust myself... or however that would be written. It wouldn't be right for me to rat out my classmate on here, but basically I was screwed over today by a classmate, and it sucked. So from now on, I will only trust myself. If other people are trustworthy, super! I'm excited for that, but I won't expect it.

So, in lieu of making myself feel better, I'm going to continue my ritual I started last night of 30 minute dance parties every night to get exercise and relax. Yesterday, I danced to top 40s rap, tonight 90s swing music. It was fabulous to just escape into the music. It reminded me of high school when I would whirl around in my blue sequined dress for my show choir and be totally at one with everything.

I don't know if everyone knows that about me, I used to be so passionate about singing and dancing. it was my entire life. It wasn't until college that I realized I would never be good enough to make it to broadway and I wasn't content to just be the director behind the scenes, so I switched to medicine.

I am so excited for Christmas this year.. maybe its the Christmas tree in my apartment, or the radio station that plays only Christmas music this time of year... or maybe its the stores I can't even get groceries in because they're so packed... who knows, but its gotten ahold of me this year... I'm actually excited... lol

Tho I have hardly any shopping done... I need to get on that... crap! two weekends before I leave... augh!

ICE!

So, we got our first ice storm of the season. Its actually kinda pretty, since I don't have to drive in it today. Tomorrow, I'll hate it when i'm driving to work 45 minutes early just so that I can go slow and make it safely. I wanted to show some pictures of my deck, which is covered with ice.

This week in pediatrics, I have started in patient. I was sick for the first half of the week, so that really sucked, but the second part of the week was great. I really enjoyed being on call, mostly because we had a Greys Anatomy party in the residents' lounge with the physican that was on call with me and one of my friends who was on call for internal medicine that night. That was nice. He didn't page me after midnight because the "kids were impossible to talk to so there was no use in me trying to take their history and physicals. lol How nice!

We've had some interesting cases. I saw a 13 year old girl who was 21 weeks (5 months) pregnant. That breaks my heart. I also had a patient who was 2 years old who had an intense fear of men. Anytime I walked in the room, she wanted to be picked up and taken away from the male doctors, nurses and even her father. I felt really bad. But its difficult because I thought that meant something and the doctors totally ignored it, so I guess that means I'm either wrong, or they're jaded. Its just frustrating.

Anyway, Christmas is coming up. I really wish that I had taken two weeks off at Christmas instead of just one. I could use the break. Anyway, next week is the beginning of General Surgery. I heard its a bloodbath, literally and figuratively, so we'll see how it goes.

Well, so much for the flu mist

well, I have started pediatrics block. Two weeks into, I got the obligatory cold that every medical student gets from runny nosed children who dont cover their coughs. Thats okay tho, I hope that this will strengthen my immune system even more. So far, tho, I've done pretty well for myself. I've managed to convince the doctors that I want to do pediatrics forever, even tho I really don't want to.
Tomorrow, I start inhouse rotations. These will be interesting. I guess these kids will be really sick, so I am hoping that I can handle it. It always makes me really sad to see kids in less than perfect condition.

Hmm in other news, my mom, stepdad and brother drove up here from Florida for Thanksgiving. That was awesome, I really needed that. It was great to have someone to come home to at night, even tho mom rearranged EVERYTHING in my house and I can't find anything now.

We went to the Lights Before Christmas at the Toledo Zoo. It was all of 26 degrees that night, but the lights were absolutely amazing. Just brilliant. I think before my mom froze she enjoyed them too. lol

I started feeling sick on thursday, so I have been sleeping A LOT at night. On friday, the physician offered me a free flumist since I needed to be immunized, and I took it without thinking. Therefore, I was very sick all weekend. my nose just keeps running. But thats okay, at least I had the weekend off!

And I experienced my first rain/sleet/ice/snow fall in Toledo this weekend. I went to dinner with a friend of mine Saturday, and when we walked into the place it wasn't snowing, and when we came out it was. But I spent two years driving on Ice so I didn't think much about it. Well, while we were on a ramp on 75, the cars around me started to hit their brakes, and without thinking I did too. Well I fishtailed bad... i was so scared! I didn't hit anyone or anything (thank GOD!) but I decided that was it for me driving that night. I guess I have to be super careful now, because this isn't Bird Arena, and there's not boards around me saving my butt.

Anyway, thats been my life so far!